I ended up in the hospital for 2 1/2 weeks. Life right now sucks, but at least I have not given up on it.
Getting my IUD put in tomorrow. It’s a huge reminder of how I got dumped and how single I am. I’m so glad I’ll have birth control to make sure I don’t get pregnant from all the sex I’m not having… I’ll just think of it as an optimistic life decision that hopefully someone in the next 5 years will want to sleep with me and when that happens I will not have to worry about condoms or babies.
I was supposed to go to a party but instead I think I’m going to stay home alone at my sister’s house and eat animal fries.
This is the first breakup I’ve had that I really wasn’t expecting. It’s the first one where I don’t hate him. I think he’s making a big mistake. I feel like throwing up.
My relationship is actually a mess. I am so insecure.
Fuck everyone who has ever thrown that “you can’t accept love until you love yourself” quote in my face. Don’t you think I fucking know that? Don’t you think that I wish I loved myself? All of my relationships are doomed because I pick strong logical men and then they see how pathetic I am and it is no longer logical for them to be in the relationship. I am a burden on everyone. I always have been.
at the Limelight in 1990
Until boyfriend is on his plane that will bring him back.